UNITEDVERSE
ONE UNIVERSE OF MANY PERSPECTIVE - BETWEEN DEPTH & HOPE
UNVEILED STARS IN MY DARK CONSTELLATION
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UNVEILED PROJECTS TO INSPIRE WORLD
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continued from Ep. 1 Loss Since then. I thought separation is for everyone. Ugly, but in fact its true. Things get meaningless in my visions, friend is attainable but could never be keeped. The very reason to have friend is....
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I just upload a blog that I wrote 15 months ago on my instagram (@Khusbin), I decide to upload that cause... it is remind me of who I was. This one is not much different, I just want to share what I have face in 15 months from back then. I dedicate this blog for people who going through the same problem with me. Ep. 1 : LossIt's starts around 6 months ago, March 2018. I had my birthday with my doods and closest ones. It was so beautiful that it's still engraved in my mind, I'm happy. But me who is grown in a society that everchanging also think "Will this end?" am I being real to everyone? Is it just a moment of Euphoric? Is it okay for me to be happy? Since that night, I realize this sheerly, I want to have closest friends, I want to have people I can trust and care about. I want something real and genuine. something sincere.I feel so close with them, Ed, Jess, Revin, Angel, Xing, most of them are amazing people who going through their own problems in the past, 'just like me, can we be friends maybe?' I wonder somehow in some part of my mind. In the middle of April, We decide to throw some a trip to Bira, six of us feels more crowded and lively rather than with this strangers I called "Friends" in my whole Highschool. We listen to each other songs, stupidly understand each other perks and cons, cook our own food which is ended a failure (we still enjoy it anyway, @Xing you are life-saver), we also speak things we never told anyone. I feel so close with them and I hope they feel the same about me. That day was one of the best day I had in 2018. This leads to an odd feelings, a question I have asked before comes again "Will this be the last?", "Are we gonna keep being like this?" I always knew this fact, nothing in this world ever lasting. Those bonds can be easily replaced, those memories can be keeped, printed on photograph and be forgotten. Yet, why I keep looking for those bonds and memories? June coming gracefully for us, brings us another motivation to live, each of us find our own path since then. What I have been afraid finally comes, we slowly drifted apart, we walked down our path relentlessly to reach our dreams. Even I already expecting this from the moment we gather, it still feels a little painful, are they feeling the same? I ask myself and keep going on. Continued on Ep. 2
Rabu, 21 Juni 2017.
Untuk seorang teman, kalian, dan aspirasi untuk dunia. Tidak ada sesuatu yang 'lebih' pada hari itu selain perasaanku, rasa bersalahku, dan harapanku. Mimpi memandangku dari dalam dan tak ada lagi yang tersembunyi baginya. Bagaikan seorang anak yang membayangkan apa itu perubahan, aku tak bisa berhenti memikirkan apa arti mimpi malam itu. Sebuah mimpi yang mengalihkan mataku dari dunia menuju 'hidup'. Tak ada yang akan pernah lari dari Kematian, dan tak ada yang akan pernah lari dari Cinta. Sebuah kisah klasik yang tak pernah padam antara pertemuan dan perpisahan. Lately I made some sort of decisions that hurts myself really bad, actually that's not the worst part. The worst part is how it affect people you care about, in my case it's about Caffeine. I lose someone who has excellent skills and discipline but too bad he misused his authority. So we must take that decision to fire the person.
This, the reason why I can't sleep tonight and wrote this blog. The message? No matter how uncomfortable it is, you must do the right things, decide the right decision. It will be worth it, you will level up, you will feel more alive. - this is my life, I start over. - I'm Kelvin, I don't have any proper title in society. Born as a misfit, a circle in square world, a right lane rebel, a person in minority who strive dauntlessly for major better of everyone. I called myself emissary between depth and hope. Between the ugly truth of life to beautiful hope of future.
So.. by professions I'm an entrepreneur, designer, creative director, business manager, barista, photographer, start-up consultant, and gifted visionary. Quite bittersweet mix up huh? well, I grown in world of entrepreneurs in Indonesia, we called them Ciputra University. Story short, I quit. Paul Arden wrotes that in his book called "It's Not How Good You Are, It's How Good You Want To Be" It's an inspiring book that every creatives should have, because it's encourage us 'artists' to keep our rebellious soul. We 'artists' have a the same pattern of how we produce something, for example ;
It's all started with one question, why the oceans coloured blue? Is it because of the reflection of the skies? It is because water coloured blue? or what? |